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hihi ya'll i'm back again O: just a preamble to this post, it's gonna be quite guys team oriented so to the female counterparts of the team who're avid readers of the blog and waiting for my post that comes once in a blue moon (whoops it's only the second blue moon now D:), sorry to disappoint you if this ain't gonna be very relevant to your team heh.

(shucks i've got shizz load of stuffs on my head so i'm gonna try my best to sort it out properly. please pardon me eh)

how time has past, and it's been half a year since we became full fledged canoeists of rj. from the white wussy pussies that we were (a'ight i know the white part is not very relevant to me but still D:), we have become much darker and hopefully much tougher to call ourselves canoeists. it probably has been a recurring doubt in our heads how we're going to get our act together given how different backgrounds we come from when we were in ri. and indeed it is still as such. we are all very different individuals, but here we are, all bound together under the name of canoeing, and this where our lives cross paths. however, our term as canoeists will only last but another 8 months or so. as of now, we're (all of us) still looking to each other for things to work out. but we know, it's never gonna work out this way. divided we stand, and united we shall fall.

there has been much talk on our half-hearted efforts during trainings. while i feel it is bit too exaggerated and stuff cause i do understand the effort it takes just to think about training every single moment. however, just realise that if ever your motivation fails you, you can draw your strength from this team. just remember, at the end of your journey in canoeing, don't forsake the right to be proud of yourself for the effort (or lack of) that you've put in. never allow any form of guilt haunt you when others recognize you for your hardwork but deep down in your hearts, you know that there have always been the doubt in your mind that has been restricting you. i'm quite certain we've been through enough to understand this.
(okay i know this is coming from all over the places but i hope you get my point)

maybe it was due to the fact that we've spent insignificant time with our seniors to look for guidance, but we can whine about it for all we want, it's not gonna change. we have been left on our own during a very early period and we have gone through a comparatively much tougher time than our senior in terms of working things out on our own. but i look to many of your eyes and i find that much strength that allows me to hold on to the hopes that we will succeed. a'ight i forbid myself to start going on about looking back on our journey as canoeist and stuff cause com'on, it hasn't begun for us. and for the next 8 months, do not look back and take comfort at how far we've come, instead, keep your heads straight and focus on how much further we're gonna cover.

(okay i'm failing at this, can barely squeeze anything out of myself within the past 2 hours writing this and pardon for the lack of flair in writing heh)

weeki